Crazy

Things have been super crazy up in here. Everybody is all freaking out, and I have literally no idea what to do. (I've been told i use the word literally wrong all the time, but meh) One of my best friends had a brief episode and is still dealing with a bunch of problems. I hate thinking about what could happen and me not being able to do anything about it. Sometimes I think it's weird when people call me a good person when I don't really do anything. I feel like I don't really deserve that title... I mean people like Joan of Arc or something are good people. I mean I'm not mean but does having basic politeness make me a good person. I don't think so.. I have a very neutral karma in life I think. Maybe I'm wrong. I don't really know. What I do know is that I feel like I've been having a good week well at least before all this stuff started happening, and I'm 100% percent positive it's on account of Kim. She's pretty awesome! I honestly don't know why I'm still up it's like 3:30, and I have to work in the morning.... robrorobrobrorborb. Whatevs, it could really always be worse. Sleeping has been hard to obtain lately, it might have something to do with constant swirling thoughts and none of them about sleep. I feel restless like I want to do stuff and I know I can't which only makes me want to stuff more. It's like a really dumb catch 22 except different I guess. That's actually why I decided to blag, I mean it's better than staring at the ceiling hoping for me to drift off eventually. Completely unrelated from what I was just talking about, but you may not believe this and I swear to you it's true. But I am completely terrified of ghosts like I legitimately think they exist and that they're going to kill me one day.... Sometimes that keeps me up and I feel really dumb the morning afterwards.. I mean like really what the heck.. Hey it turned out to be related in the end! Oh and I am currently in my bed and I just realized I guess I'm not technically staring at the ceiling considering there is a flag up there. but whatevs.. It's so dark in here.. I also have another illegitimate fear of murderers.. Like I fear murderers coming into my house and just chilling out under my bed or something. Then they wait until I fall asleep gently wake me up and then proceed to kill me very violently. So I pretty much check under my bed everytime before I sleep..(I do the same thing with cars(except with the back seat)) I'm starting to realize I have like a million and a half irrational fears. One of which is heights. If you've ever tried to scare me you have probably been epically successful because I scare super easy probably more easily than anyone. I was closing lobby the other night, and my friend hid behind a door way and i was looking down to make sure I didn't step in a mysterious pool of water and I look up and he just yells, and I literally screamed.. It was a very manly scream of course though. Well I think I'm going to stop my noise hole from emitting idiocies..

Lates Dawg,
Michael!!!!!